I love a good story, and I know you do, too.
I share my stories because I want people to believe in the possibility for their lives to change in beautiful, amazing ways they never could have imagined. (Don’t fret, there’s a great story at the end!)
Seriously, over the course of the last six years, I’ve:
• Left a job that was killing my soul and found the one that makes me excited to do it, every single day.
• Received more money than I’d ever received in my life.
• Recalibrated everything in my life so that I can be me, fully. If I can’t, I don’t do it.
• Healed all of my intimacy issues and re-written myself entirely as a sexual being.
• Gone from being pretty resentful and tired of having a child with special needs to seeing him in my life in a whole new way, and a much deeper love and appreciation for him.
• Created intimate relationships that have blown away all of my expectations, ever.
• Moved from a relationship of contempt and resignation with my mother into one of mutual love and respect and care.
• Healed from a divorce and have developed a stronger relationship with my ex-husband than ever.
Here’s what I didn’t do.
I didn’t do it by reading someone’s story and trying to apply the principles. I had to get in the trenches and do the work. And by work, I don’t mean trying, I mean being really aware and present of who and how I was being in the world, and whether that was who and how I wanted to be. (And, I needed someone to call bullshit when I tried to wiggle out of it because it was uncomfortable. Besides, I’m a pro wiggler.)
I share the stories for you to it’s possible to have it. But, the truth is, you can’t have it unless you’re willing to do the work.
There comes a time to ask yourself, “Am I willing to trade what I know as comfortable? Am I willing to put my whole fucking heart and soul in this to see who I am on the other side?”
It is not easy. But it is simple.
And if you’ve ever gone after anything impossible in your life and found yourself just past the finish line, you have what it takes to do this, too.
You claiming more of yourself is whatever you want to make it. You can literally go after anything you want. All you have to do is decide.
AND NOW FOR THE STORY.
The other night, I attended an event that I’d never been to before for people who consider themselves intuitive to practice and play with using their intuition with each other. (I’m such a party animal!) Each person would take a turn asking a question that they were looking for guidance on, and then if anyone in the room felt something come through for that person, they could share it.
I didn’t come with a question I was looking to have answered, but when it was my turn, I simply asked if anyone had anything that I needed to hear.
A bunch of people popped up with a few word answers. Sunshine, play, I needed to receive more appreciation.
But there was one man who took it a step further.
These are the words he said to me:
“There’s a depth and a profoundness to you. I see a beautiful alter in a church, and there is so much healing for others. But…it’s also like there’s something missing for you. Like, where’s the holy in the holy water?”
I knew exactly what he meant.
It was a moment where I felt so clearly seen that I was moved to tears by the words of this complete stranger. I couldn’t escape; he was on to me, and had perhaps revealed one of the most intimate things about me without necessarily knowing what it was.
I opened myself up so he could see me, and he did. There is no better feeling.
Remember that list?
The things I mentioned that have transformed in my life over the last six years? I would add one to the list: being seen. It’s a reward in and of itself. And I would be a jerk (and lying to you) if I didn’t share that I wouldn’t have any one of the other things on the list if I hadn’t been willing to be seen first.
You have to be willing to be seen. You have to be willing to do the work. You know where to find me when you are.